Hot Blog: THEBIGSWALLOW THE BIG SWALLOW trust me Kathy," he told me as I saw him fighting back tears. "I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for deceiving you and I am ready to spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I want you to trust me again. I want to see that look of longing in your eyes when you look at me."
I wanted him even more now, but again I resisted and I kept my eyes fixated at the floor so he couldn't see what was really in my heart. "You have a son. You need to focus on his needs. He needs his father," I said, "I don't want to get in the way."
"He's fine with his mother right now. I am part of his life. He knows I am his daddy. Stop changing the subject," he said sounding annoyed and angry. "Did you read my letter, I mean truly READ it?" he asked.
"About 100 times," I said as I could no longer contain my tears. "That's what makes what I am about to tell you so difficult." He just looked at me blankly. "I've uprooted myself from the only secure life I'd ever known. I came here to be with you and start a new life. I've done that. I am on the right track for the first time since I graduated college. My life is here now. I've got a blossoming business and I've made new friends. I have enough money saved now to find a home of my own...." I trailed off and swallowed hard and continued, "...and I think that's what I need to do."
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